Too often I feel as though I come off wholesome, humble, all of that business. I've hurt people, messed up relationships, lied, stolen, pushed, yelled, cheated, etc... But! I've tried to change that as much as I can. I think I'm a bit more even headed now, but really that isn't the point. There is no point! No end goal, no "other shore" to reach, no enlightenment, no delusion. Every moment is the other shore whether we like it or not. We just wish things were different, and that's why we can't even see the Buddha's robe we wear.
I don't drink. Not because I'm so high and mighty on the moral ladder that I think I'm better than that, that it is some how beneath me. It just doesn't agree with me, I don't like the taste, and I don't like feeling numb. Often enough, drinks are taken to "take the edge off." I think this is the biggest load of BS I've ever heard. NOTHING, not even meditation, will ever fully take the edge off. It might dull things for a bit, but life is a self-sharpening knife. The edge always comes back. The purpose, I suppose is figuring out how to handle that knife. We can use it to slice our food, make something wonderful and fulfilling. Or we can cut ourselves because "we just can't handle it."
There are people with real, deep, dark problems and secrets in the world. It is hard to handle them, but let me reiterate it is ok. We start our life every moment, there is nothing holding us back. Let your demons come out, it's just your brain anyway. Thoughts are to the brain what stomach acid is to the stomach. A natural occurrence. Just leave them as they are and they will fade. I have no credentials, no certificate saying anything I'm saying is right, "an enlightened experience" I just speak from what I know and the pain I see in those close to me. I just ask that people wield their knives with care and a calm demeanor, even when it seems impossible. Cut your tomatoes, your cucumbers, and your bread - not yourself or each other.
Sincerely,
A great fool and terrible chef.
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